I'm about to lose it

I just cannot keep my shit together today. Grace did not want to daycare. She just clung to me and didn't want to stay/didn't want me to leave. One of her teachers brought her to the window and watched me leave as she's just bawling. I can NOT take it anymore. I have got to quit my job. I snapped at Mackenzie this weekend because she wouldn't stop playing and come eat lunch. I started crying last night because it just seems like everyone has their shit together. Our neighbors, Sean and Heather, just bought a house and will be moving next month. I already feel so alone here and now they're leaving too. I'm being a bit dramatic, they are still in town.

I so badly want to quit my job and stay at home with Grace. If I do that I don't know if that will affect us being qualified to buy a house up in MN. Daycare already eats up 1/2 of my take home pay. I have said it before and I'll say it again: I busted my ass and got a college degree so I could be someone ELSE'S secretary? WTF?! I just can't hold out any longer. Ugh!!!

Happy freaking Monday!